One of my regular practices is a daily altar ritual. I usually set up my weekly altar on Sunday, feeling into the energy of the week and what I want to focus on.

This week we have the first new moon after the Total Eclipse. She is in Virgo and is already showing her power. She brings more change and the need to flow and adapt. She also reminds us of our deepest most painful wounds that want to be acknowledged and nursed.

It is also September…. All the energies of our personal year are intensified and brought clearly to the surface this month.

And it is the Autumn Equinox. A time to celebrate harvest, honor balance and give thanks.

Radical change is in the air… do you feel it too? Read More…

I am beginning to come out of the listlessness. The past 2 weeks have consisted of going to work, coming home, eating and then going to bed to Wake in the early hours to do the same thing over again. Keeping my routines of Qigong and meditation has kept me sane, but unfulfilled. No desire to cook, no inspiration to write or paint or plan my garden or any of the multitudes of creative endeavors I usually enjoy. I put it off to simply being “fruehjahrsmuedigkeit”, German for the lethargy at the beginning of spring. It may also be the frustration of not being able to connect with my muse, my genie, my brilliance.

Or it is what it is. Read More…

Willingly and enthusiastically accept and support the totality of who and what you are;  those inner selves that are not who you truly are, but were created at some point in the past to protect your deepest values and gifts at all cost, the inner selves that are still living in the belief they are not safe.

It took a near death experience, and the resulting deep seated peace within me, for me to compassionately embrace my not good enough and frightened self, the one not daring to be who she fully is for fear she would be shunned or worse.

The months and years following that accident brought ever changing situations/conflicts  into my life that sometimes made the new emotional baseline of peace within me very quiet, as if the volume was turned down on the once all encompassing state. These situations would trigger/ reawaken the old feeling of “It’s not ok to be me”.  I would feel (and still do) an anxiety and tightness in different parts of my body, that would become louder if I did not or do not pay attention to it. Most times the simple act of paying attention to the discomfort would be (and is) enough to ease the tension and anxiety and let peace take its place again. Sometimes it is not enough, and I must allow myself to sink within, be curious and compassionately seek out and embrace the inner me that is causing the discomfort. Read More…

” Life has a way of testing a person´s will, either by having nothing happen at all or by having everything happen all at once.” – Paulo Coelho

 

Those times in life. Yeah, you know those times. When you´re chomping at the bit, pawing the sand, ready to go. And then Life says, oh.no. – not.just.yet.

You know. When everything could happen.

But nothing does.

Then, there are the times where everything happens all at once. Right?! New clients start coming in, the house is ready to be moved into, school starts, new routines want to be made, business takes off, the phone is ringing, the emails overflowing.

So what is up with that ? What ever happened to balance?

I believe that “Balance” is a Lie. Yep. A LIE. Read More…

This post was originally at my Sister´s Blog space littlecoffeebeans.com

As my sister was preparing to birth her second child, I found myself reflecting once again on my own birth experiences, and the lessons birthing taught me. Birth is a major life event, pushing a woman to grow beyond every limit she has ever known. With each birth, not only is a child born, but a mother is born as well; each child born has its own Mother, for a Woman changes with each birth experience. Read More…